"be where you're suppose to be, when you are suppose to be there."
So I went, stood in the hall most of sacrament meeting. Stood in the hall all of sunday school. Finally Clair couldn't take it any longer. I think if my stuff wasn't still in the room where class was going I would have left early. Clair ended up finding the stairs to the nursery she started crying and banging on the door. Before I could get to her the door was open and a place mat with a snack was being prepared for her. I wasn't going to let her go because of the runny nose but it felt so good to be welcomed in and Clair was happy so we stayed.
Coming home and thinking back I feel like I didn't get any spiritual boost for this coming week. I just felt frustrated. A friend told me once that during the period of having young children church isn't for you. It is to teach and show that even though it is hard and isn't the funnest thing they could be doing it is where we are suppose to be. It is setting that example and pattern in their life.
I know that even though I am not sitting in Relief Society and feeling the spirit there I am doing what I am suppose to be. That is, I am where I am suppose to be, when I am suppose to be there and one day that will pay off.
I love my little Clair and am so grateful for the chance I have to test my testimony and have it grow as I teach her.
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Daniel has only been to nursery one Sunday so far, but Jason loved it! I am in Primary so Jason has spent time with Daniel, but I do remember trying to deal with Daniel before I was called to primary, and although SUPER hard, the quote you shared really puts it all into perspective. Thanks for sharing, and remember nursery isn't that far away!!
and as far as getting ready for the day, I usually do it to, but the same for me on Sunday, it is SO hard if Jason isn't around to help out!
Oh Jill I am so sorry! Just try and remember that you will be there sooner than you realize the day will come when she is in nursery.
Rhett has only been in nursery 2 weeks now, it was really nice to be able to sit in rs/sunday school and hear the lesson.
On the days when I felt like that I would try and read an ensign article or something so that I could get that boost. You know one day we will have teenagers that will have a hard time staying awake in church and then we will wish they had a little more energy.
I's had so many of these same thoughts and feelings.
"This is for me to show them that I really know. That I go even when it's hard, even when I didn't get 'anything' out of it because I love Him and I know where it's I'm supposed to be."
And the thing is they probably won't get the message until one day they're wrestling little ones of their own through three hours of meetings. But if what I'm doing know makes it easier for them to be strong and stay where they're supposed to be even when it's hard, then I'd do it over and over again: )
Thanks for the reminder.
You're awesome.
Oh I feel for you my friend. Right near 18 months is the hardest time and it's hard to not just stay home, especially if the husband can't come that day. But you're right, it's all about being in the right place. Hang in there, blessings come after the trial of your faith.
I always thought they should teach a class in the hall for moms/dads/toddlers. :)
It's been a while, but I remember spending Sundays walking the halls. But let me tell you, now that my little guy is 8 1/2, he KNOWS we go to church every Sunday because... that's what we do! So stick with it. You will get that "mommy moment" when Claire will say, "We go to church today?" Until then, make sure you read your RS and SS lessons and fill your spiritual needs at home. You will be blessed for it!
I had the same feelings last Sunday! Richard is Elders Quorum president and so it leaves me having to get Liam and I ready and out the door every Sunday. I feel awful because most Sundays we are late, and then during all the lessons Richard or I are running after Liam in the hallway or chasing him through the room. Sometimes I feel guilty because I just don't stay put long enough in one place to really listen to whats being taught and Liam is only 14 months so he isn't old enough to go to nursery yet. And I am not sure if Clair is the same, but Liam is SO social that no matter how many awesome new toys or snacks I bring, all he wants to do is run around exploring and seeing new people! ::sigh::
It's a hard stage regarding church, especially when our church starts exactly at nap time so he is exhausted & therefore hyper all 3 hours leaving me exhausted from chasing him!
I hope one day soon I will be able to listen to the lessons again, but with #2 coming in a couple months, once Liam is in nursery, I will have another one to distract me! I guess that is just part of the sacrifices of motherhood and this stage of our lives! At least Heavenly Father knows our hearts and knows that what we are doing for our children by just bringing them to church, is what we are supposed to do! One of these days we will be able to sit through a lesson once all our kids are old enough to go to their own classes! :) Kids are such wonderful, amazing little adventures aren't they?
Thanks for the post! Helped me realize there are others going through the same things and sorry for the long comment! It's just been on my mind a lot. Good luck!
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